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I scheduled Harley to be put to sleep on Saturday. He had been relatively ok, not in too much pain, but losing his appetite and getting rather skinny. He couldn't walk as long either. I figured might as well put him to sleep this week before he got worse.

However, a few hours ago he very suddenly took a turn for the worse. He yelped a bit and was panty and in pain. After a few minutes he stood up, went to the door, and lost control of his bladder.

Since it was obvious he wasn't doing well, I decided to take him to the 24 hour vet and put him to sleep. He went outside ok, but ran off to the side of the house. And I guess that was too much, because I had a really hard time getting him to the car, and had to lift him into it, then onto the seat. By the time we got to the vet, we had to take him in with a gurney, which he found very alarming. I petted him and told him he was silly.

They took him back to put in the catheter and probably sedate him, and then brought him back to me. He was still very panty, but soon fell asleep with his head in my lap. It didn't seem like a very peaceful sleep, but once his breath slowed down to a normal-ish pace, I got the vet for the last two injections. First to put him into a deep sleep, the second to stop his heart. It was very quick, and he looked up once before it was over. He also gave a very Harley-ish burp, after his heart was stopped, which the vet said was the carbon dioxide escaping. I left when his ears started to get cold.

He wasn't in pain in the end and that's enough.

I'm relatively ok right now, which I'm kinda surprised about. I guess it's because I've had since March to come with terms, and already did some hard crying in the days leading up to this. I'm feeling rather detached right now.

I'm not sure why I'm writing this much about this, but my memory is bad and I just want some kind of record for him.

I miss you Harley and I hope you're happy, wherever you are.

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Date: 2010-05-21 10:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] eienmornie.livejournal.com
;_; I'm sorry, bby <3 I hope he's happy too with a good leg and a tongue that's not missing a piece

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Date: 2010-05-21 03:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] themadfish.livejournal.com
*hugs*

"a tongue that's not missing a piece"

Hah, that made me laugh. The vet actually commented and asked about this, since they've never seen that in a greyhound. I had to tell her that I wasn't sure what happened, but he probably was just running around like a fool and accidentally chomped on it. (ok, he probably raced, and something happened where he had to close his mouth suddenly. Like crashing against another dog or something)

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Date: 2010-05-21 01:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wodhaund.livejournal.com
I'm sorry, sweetie. I'm glad his going was easy, at least.

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Date: 2010-05-21 01:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tamnonlinear.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry. You did right by him, as hard as it was, and this was the last kindness you can offer. You are both in my thoughts.

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Date: 2010-05-21 03:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] themadfish.livejournal.com
Thank you. I meant to tell you too that it helped a lot, reading your posts on your own pet losses, and the subsequent profiles. It helped me with making the final decision. I never had to make this decision before, so it helped by letting me know what to expect, and that I was doing the right thing.

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Date: 2010-05-21 01:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] a-lifestyle.livejournal.com
I'm so, so sorry.

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Date: 2010-05-21 01:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sagejupiter.livejournal.com
Oh hun. I am sorry for your loss. *hugs*

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Date: 2010-05-21 02:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mahaliem.livejournal.com
My sincere condolences on your loss.

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Date: 2010-05-21 07:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kattikawn.livejournal.com
I know words mean very little in comparison to what you're feeling, but I'm sorry for your loss and I hope your puppy is in a better place now free from suffering. I'm sure he was grateful for the love you gave him.

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Date: 2010-05-22 09:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tracy-loo-who.livejournal.com
This entry almost makes me teary. :( *hugs you so hard*